We never get flowers when we can still smell them.This is truth not just a thought.

Excuse me if I haven’t been my friendly self lately, online and in real life. So to borrow from Dionne Warwick “If you see me walking down the street…..And I start to cry…..Walk on by…..Make believe that you don't see the tears…Yes let me grieve in private”. The thing is I am having a difficult time accepting that Brown Dash is gone. And I know that, that is only natural, we live and we die but somehow his death is hard to fathom. Maybe because of the generosity of his spirit. I met Brown before, back when I was still a chain smoker at Wits University School of Art, I stay with a stringent uncle in Ferndale, Randburd-Joburg, he always tried to keep me on a leash but like a sweet sixteen I’d always sneak out, knock about around that vicinity and Brown Dash would pull in at the Zennex Garage on Oxford Rd in his Mini Cooper. You bet he was looking like a superstar, calm as ever, in his white Chuck Taylors, Khaki pants and a plain white T-shirt. He oozed humility, pleasant to watch him exchange pleasantries with the petrol attendants there; he even bought me cigarettes every now and again. And now he is gone. But what breaks my heart the most, is all that postmortem love dude has been getting.MTV Base, Vuzu TV, Channel O, Metro FM, Y FM, Capricorn FM were amongst the first media houses to express their condolences, and I am thinking ‘but y’all didn’t play his music nor videos in a while, why love him now?’. Even TS Records shouted him out on Twitter, and this are the same people that left him out in the cold to dry. Ok, I’ll say this much, I don’t really know the details of that fall out in depth BUT as far as I know they wanted nothing to do with him. Ludacris said it better “Most of this record executives done care nothing about you, if you stop selling records, they’ll act like they don’t know you”. But you see Brown Dash didn’t stop selling records, I mean the people at TS Records are mean at that, look what they did with Zahara, and they could possibly sell water to an ocean. The sin that did Brown Dash in was that he wanted more money off those record sales (I won’t say anything about TS Records repossessing the Mini Cooper from Brown, because that’s just too cruel). Since then even radar couldn’t find him. At least not until Mandla Spikiri brought back to life, he featured Brown alongside bad boy Bricks Mabrigado and hip hop giants Teargas on Ngeke Balunge.Man, he even got another shot at fame at the 18th South African Music Awards but he slipped back into latency right after that performance, I know you were oblivious to that performance because I didn’t see your tweets about how dope that was. Nine days later he died, but he came back, on Twitter, trending. And that’s why I am hurting, that eishhh is messed up. We should have told him how much we loved when he was still here, but I guess it’s true what Kanye said “People never get flowers when they can still smell them”. R.I.P Simphiwe Mpamile.